Words fail me. If you followed Larry Nassar’s sentencing hearing, I bet you’re right here with me. I know how I feel about aspects of the hearing, but there is no word for the overall feeling this situation elicits. I feel awe for the unimaginable strength of the 156 women who read Victim Impact Statements just feet away from the man who tried to ruin their lives. Disgust for the monster in the prison uniform. Disbelief that he was able to get away with so much for so long. Grief as I watch a rage-filled father lunge at Nassar. Hope that this hideous situation will serve as a moment of reckoning for all of us. So here’s what I’m reckoning with at the moment: Niceness. “Be nice.” “If you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all.” “Is that a nice thing to say?” As a lifelong people pleaser, I’ve said all of these things to my children, many times. Being nice is important to me. I can’t stand it when people are mean or dismissive for no reason. I love those adorable shirts that little girls wear, decorated with messages like “Choose Kindness” in shimmery, curlicue script. I’ll be damned if my own children are going to act like entitled jerkwads who treat waitresses and customer service people like disposable doormats. However… What do we do with niceness in a world where a human garbage bag like Larry Nassar gets to prey on girls who were taught to be nice to adults? What do we do with manners in a world where a whole assortment of coaches, friends, and colleagues turned a blind eye to Nassar’s crimes because they were taught to never rock the boat, never be the squeaky wheel, never burn bridges? As a mother, how do I balance #choosekindness with #reality? It’s important for my son and daughter to know that they are no more special than anyone else. It’s important for their actions to reflect this belief. Before they step on anyone to get ahead, they had better reach down and help their teammates stand beside them. However… It’s equally important for them to know that they deserve as much love, respect, safety, and kindness as everyone else. It’s just as important for them to ask for what they need and feel confident that they deserve it when they get it. It’s my job to teach them how to speak up when someone crosses a line. It’s crucial that they know these lines exist, that they keep these lines strong and clear. How do we raise children with suits of armor and open hearts? What kind of life do you end up with if you surround yourself with impenetrable walls? But what do you invite into your life if you have no walls at all? How do I raise my children to be respectful, but also to know that respect goes out the window as soon as their gut says something is off? I don’t have answers for any of these questions. Just like I don’t have a word for how I feel as I follow the Nassar situation. I will probably never find the balance between nice and fierce, but I will never stop looking for it, either. Maybe we can start small. Maybe, on the back of those adorable “Choose Kindness” shirts our daughters wear, we can add a message to balance it out: “Don’t EVER mistake my kindness for weakness.”
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Dori Baldvinsson
2/10/2018 12:25:16 pm
What a beautifully written piece. You express perfectly the conundrum of raising kids to be nice in an inherently flawed (and all too often, dangerous) world. Indeed, "How do we raise children with suits of armor and open hearts"?
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Marilyn
2/10/2018 12:56:29 pm
Very nice, Grace. Your son and daughter are blessed to have you as their mom. Keep up the outstanding parenting!
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La
2/11/2018 08:20:02 am
Dear Grace,
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